It hurt more than we expected. Of course we had Isaac to make us laugh and give purpose to the season, but there was a gaping hole where you should have been. God is gracious and came to fill the empty spaces, but the tears still fell like rain and anxiety ran high.
There were babies everywhere! It is still so hard to see them because you can't help but constantly compare.Would she have looked like that? How big would she be now? They look so happy and in love...I wanted that...
We decorated a little live tree at the cemetery complete with lights and a star. On Christmas Eve they line the entire place with candle lights. It was beautiful. After church we opened a present for Lilly by her tree. It was a picture frame engraved with her name and dates. We also bought her a beautiful angel with a globe that we will set out every year at Christmas.
At home we lit a candle above her stocking and let it burn from the night of Christmas Eve to Christmas night.
There were babies everywhere! It is still so hard to see them because you can't help but constantly compare.Would she have looked like that? How big would she be now? They look so happy and in love...I wanted that...
We decorated a little live tree at the cemetery complete with lights and a star. On Christmas Eve they line the entire place with candle lights. It was beautiful. After church we opened a present for Lilly by her tree. It was a picture frame engraved with her name and dates. We also bought her a beautiful angel with a globe that we will set out every year at Christmas.
At home we lit a candle above her stocking and let it burn from the night of Christmas Eve to Christmas night.
After the first good snow we built a little snowgirl for Lilly. The hat was a shower gift meant for her. We miss you Lillybug!
